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You could hear a pin drop. James Kirk didn't know what to say. Of all the things his friend could give as an explanation, as to why he couldn't love him, this was not the answer he expected. He truly believed he knew Spock, but he was mistaken.

This revelation, was something he deeply kept hidden and it shamed Spock to divulge the real reason he left for Gol.

The silence in the Jim's apartment went on far too long, and Spock broke Jim's reverie and spoke.

"I did not wish for you to know this. I thought I was prepared. I was not." Spock spoke softly, his voice barely a whisper, his eyes tired with fatigue.

Jim found his voice finally, and responded back softly to his friend, matching the same tone.

"I didn't know." Jim replied, not knowing what else to say.

They both felt a loss for words and couldn't even meet each other's gaze, in fact avoiding it all together.

"How could you?" Spock regained his speech and replied to Jim's statement.

Jim approached his friend slowly, and rested a hand on Spock's shoulder, making the Vulcan have no choice but to acknowledge him.

"Don't you know how important you are to me."

It wasn't a question, but a fact. Jim still couldn't fathom why Spock could not feel an once of love, or more specifically, acceptance of himself. Of course, we all have things we don't like about ourselves, that we wish we could change. But, the majority of people, who have some pride in themselves, simply are fine with who they are.

"Why am I important to you? Why do you care so much?" Spock asked curiously.

"I just do. It's difficult to explain. Actually, when you're in love with someone, you can't explain it. It's how it is." Jim replied, his hand sliding down slowly Spock's arm, touching his bent elbow.

Spock turned away, not wanting to face him once again.

Jim sighed.

"Please, don't turn away from me, Spock. We can work on your self-esteem together."

Spock's back was still facing Jim.

"You will never know what it is like to be a Vulcan."

"But, I want to know. I want to know everything about you. How can I make you understand?"

"You simply do not understand."

Jim turned Spock toward him.

"Make me understand. Let me help."

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You could hear a pin drop. James Kirk didn't know what to say. Of all the things his friend could give as an explanation, as to why he couldn't love him, this was not the answer he expected. He truly believed he knew Spock, but he was mistaken.

This revelation, was something he deeply kept hidden and it shamed Spock to divulge the real reason he left for Gol.

The silence in the Jim's apartment went on far too long, and Spock broke Jim's reverie and spoke.

"I did not wish for you to know this. I thought I was prepared. I was not." Spock spoke softly, his voice barely a whisper, his eyes tired with fatigue.

Jim found his voice finally, and responded back softly to his friend, matching the same tone.

"I didn't know." Jim replied, not knowing what else to say.

They both felt a loss for words and couldn't even meet each other's gaze, in fact avoiding it all together.

"How could you?" Spock regained his speech and replied to Jim's statement.

Jim approached his friend slowly, and rested a hand on Spock's shoulder, making the Vulcan have no choice but to acknowledge him.

"Don't you know how important you are to me."

It wasn't a question, but a fact. Jim still couldn't fathom why Spock could not feel an once of love, or more specifically, acceptance of himself. Of course, we all have things we don't like about ourselves, that we wish we could change. But, the majority of people, who have some pride in themselves, simply are fine with who they are.

"Why am I important to you? Why do you care so much?" Spock asked curiously.

"I just do. It's difficult to explain. Actually, when you're in love with someone, you can't explain it. It's how it is." Jim replied, his hand sliding down slowly Spock's arm, touching his bent elbow.

Spock turned away, not wanting to face him once again.

Jim sighed.

"Please, don't turn away from me, Spock. We can work on your self-esteem together."

Spock's back was still facing Jim.

"You will never know what it is like to be a Vulcan."

"But, I want to know. I want to know everything about you. How can I make you understand?"

"You simply do not understand."

Jim turned Spock toward him.

"Make me understand. Let me help."